I posted this on Facebook 5 years ago when I first came out with my website, officially letting people in my network know about my coaching and meditation work. I had been doing both for a while, but was scared to officially put it out there to my network because of what they might think.
I wrote these words explaining my WHY then, and they still resonate with me today.
Yes, my work has evolved, but ultimately…a lot remains the same. That same feeling of fulfillment and purpose. That same feeling of knowing there’s more to life.
“A few years ago I realized that I had fallen prey to the illusion that if I had the perfect job, the perfect relationship, the perfect condo, and the perfect trips, I would be successful and therefore complete. I was a classic over-achiever and learned through one too many episodes of after school Oprah that I was responsible for my life.
As a result, always the planner, when I was seventeen I wrote out my vision for where I wanted to be when I “grew up”, which entailed working as a lawyer on Bay St., living downtown near the CN tower, dating a guy that most definitely wore a suit, and taking trips around the world.It was only once I ticked every item on my life checklist that the sparkle in my life began to fade and I was left feeling disillusioned and lost. If this is what I was working toward for so long, I thought, why didn’t it feel that good once I finally had it? Who was I to not feel happy with the life that was objectively a great success? I felt a deep lack of connection or purpose, despite everything I had built.
Not even through my twenties, I thought “is this all there is?”
I was so stressed with the demands of my law practice and other commitments that I thought that I didn’t have the time to spend figuring out why I was feeling so stuck, and so instead, I did what many of us do, and I scheduled over, Netflixed over, dated over, drank over, hit the gym over, and worked over the feeling of discord.That was, until I got what I now call a spiritual smackdown.
It was February 1, 2014 and I woke up hungover. I had spent over a year running from my biggest fear, which was admitting that I wasn’t happy even though I finally had the life I always wanted for myself.
As I walked outside and felt the Winter air pierce my skin, and the watched the sun illuminate the white snow around me, a voice came over me that clearly dictated: enough. you are not supposed to be living this way.
It was the voice that knew that while our lives are constantly evolving, they should feel exciting, magical, and deeply fulfilling. If it is not, then something has gone amiss and we’ve been led astray. It was time to stop running.Many of you know that meditation was the first game changer for me because it helped slow down my over-active mind and find my balance at work, but it later became a tool for greater self-reflection.
I later became insatiably curious about mindfulness, consciousness, the brain, optimizing human performance, goal mastery, yogic philosophy, the law of attraction, the science of gratitude and happiness, what it meant to live a life of purpose, and spirituality.
However, what I felt was missing in the discourse on personal growth and wellness was how to integrate them into a life that was extremely busy and demanding with little free time, as opposed to say, quitting your job and running off to live on a beach (which is also awesome, but ultimately was not practical for me). I wanted to figure out how, exactly, I could bring a sense of vitality, happiness and meaning to my life, while still keeping up with the pace and responsibilities in it.
And that’s what I’ve been up to for the past few years: soaking it all it and integrating these tools and practices to intentionally create a life that now feels – surprise – magical, exciting and deeply fulfilling. I truly believe that we are all changemakers and our lives are supposed to feel this way so that we can play at our highest level and awaken to our true purpose. It’s from THAT place that we can create massive changes in the world with legacies coloured by how deeply we loved and how many lives we impacted.
I’m so excited to share in this new platform all that I’ve learned through writing about the topics that inspire me and working one on one with those who are ready to transition from where they are to where they want to be.”